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|  I've always known that physical contact, love, and caring was always something that was required for a healthy life. It's something you learn in psych 101, and things that you see from loving families but you never truly know what it is until you experience it first hand.
Having that special someone in your life is just so important its hard to describe. Now when i say special someone it can be but it doesn't have to mean a girlfriend or boyfriend. That special someone is the person who is always there when needed, someone who knows exactly how you feel and knows the best way to cheer you up when you're down. That special someone doesn't need to spend hours listening to you rant, a simple hug makes everything better (although having a long talk is great too xD)
It's times like these when life just couldn't be any better. Sitting on a couch, talking with friends, and the only thing on your mind is how warm that person feels sitting next to you. Her head on your chest or yours on his, just breathing, sitting there, not having to worry about anything else except that moment. Feeling like you're floating in the sky with no regret, or care in the world.
Physical contact is an amazing thing, eye contact even more so. With just one moment of contact, a message can be conveyed without a single word from either party. The only sad thing is that these moments can't last forever. There will always be an end to them and in between these moments, the time will seem like forever. You just can't wait until that next time, where you can hold your special someone. Lying there, breathing in their scent, feeling their heart beat and loving... every ...second.
Although then you have to think...is this all real? can this actually be true? or maybe... just maybe it's all been a lie. Have to cross your fingers, just hope for the best and see where this takes you.
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| hmm place to just rant is what i need right now. First of all, it's bloody 2:30am and i can't fall asleep -__-' oh and did i mention i have class at 9:30 tomorrow morning? it may not seem all that bad to most people, but the fact that my classes usually start at 12:30 or later, 9:30 is a big deal for me.
K that's not the only thing i wanted to rant about. You see... there's this girl, yes another girl -_-' sue me... anyways, i might be falling for her 0_o' we have some of the weirdest conversations and i'm not sure if it's because she's just having fun talking to me, playing me, or is actually trying to say something.
Here's an example, we were texting about what we get out of university besides our education, and we mentioned free stuff. pencils, dishware, utencils things like that. So she says quote "like stealing a microscope? lol or doing it in a lecture hall? okay last one was rather disturbing haha" end quote.
I have no clue what to make of that, do i persue this new found information and act on it? or just let things go how it is, with just having lunch on fridays, talking on msn, and during chinese classes. sigh i'm so lost on what to do, cause i'm in some serious need of some kind of relationship... someone to share feelings with, stories, needs and wants. Atleast someone you know cares about you who during a cold winter day you can snuggle with and not feel like a total idiot. someone you can talk to and not care about what you say.
gah, this kind of rant again... goes to show bottling it up is a bad idea. Should i deploy a wait and see method? or maybe go gunho on this and see how she reacts... then again maybe i should start by finding out if she's in a relationship with someone else? haha wouldn't that just be sad. I'm looking so in depth into this and all for naught. god what a waste of energy and time this would be. sigh i'm too inexperienced with this kind of stuff, and too bloody shy to try things. guess i'll find out once she's done her economics midterm.
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|  wah, chipped my tooth, hurts so much.
and good bye Auntie Bonneta, i'll miss you
on a positive side... I got myself a job XD | | |
| cross country today, and it was FREEZING, freezing rain, with a little hail. ugh, but still had fun 145th out of about 300 senior boys, so i did pretty well. also i don't need an answer, and i'm sorry if that changed anything, my mistake. | | |
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